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haiyas. i'm super super emo right now. bud wad to do? i cried once i got home.
knowing D gt a gf(: i didnt express anything at work. everything seems to be okays.
budbud i dun understand whywhy when i got home. i enter FB after sending him thh msg in FB. my tears keep flowing non-stop. i didnt mean any harm(: i dun feel anything for him actually, budbud i dunno why.
i care for sumone even more(: i misses him at work. finish work tink of him. instead of D. budbud why do i still teared for D??
i dun wan. i really dun wan. i dun wanna care his problem. its not jus saying. indeed i wanna do tat. budbud.. he told me even before i get to work. tat he is attached, i say.. goodgood. bcos i did move on as well. budbud why do i still teared?
i'm sorries. i didnt meant it. i'm not selfish. i really cared for sumone even more(:
hope i'm getting better, after i cried this hard time de! i know its unnfair. budbud.
please... i really dunno what i want..
well.. i hope i really can move on well. start a new, good &&&& steady r/s soon.
i wanna overcome this. its the worst nitemare i ahve encounter. i dun wan. i dun wan history to repeat itself):
FOR ---: actually until now. i still hope u did found a special sumone(: we are from 2 different world like you say. yes! i'm sturborn, we are both adult. bud to me you are like my big brother. guiding me frm everything(: i guess i give the wrong tinking le. i'm sorries. i tot &&&& still i tot. i'm too sturborn to listen and to know anything. bcos i jus want it my way. yupp. blame me for everything. i'm to blame. we shuldnt have went out even in the start rite? budbud. indeed thank god tat i've found u. and know u in person. well enough. and wont hate and dislike u like i first met you(: i cant judge a book by its cover. andand its my fault for clinging onto you for so fuking long! lastly, take good care of urself. stay happy.
okays. work is okay for me. this week schedule to be in phuture. its like finally.
i know. its been months since i last got there(:
IPHONE by next week? i couldnt stop my temptation lahhs(: howhowhowhowhowhow(:
okays. gonna stop here. and let my tears stop(:


with loves,
joann(:

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